Revelatory Truths (short read)
In times withered by the cultural wears of life’s everyday undertakings and habits, speaking our truth can be a revelation. If the majority of what we speak is subconscious, or how we act is subconsciously mirroring our thought patterns, and in addressing the accommodation aspect that was imbibed into my psyche as I was growing up, is a hard task that I am currently in wares with, on the daily. It is the people pleaser in me that will probably be forever assessing what it means to have boundaries, what those boundaries are and if trusting those boundaries are warranted. In doing this I have noticed a pattern creeping up in my wiser days. The pattern of feeling truly fulfilled after speaking a truth that seems to resonate with me. It’s interesting that this truth becomes holy known as authentic in nature because of the feeling that springs up in lieu of it. It it feels as if I’ve been holding onto hot burning coals without even knowing it and finally dropping them.
It’s a feeling of lightness and clarity all wrapped up into a perfect present. Sometimes these truths take awhile to come forward in certain circumstances, where there were other trauma patterns being played out beforehand, but in sifting through the chaos, I often get to a place of more chaos and eventually a glimmer of light at the end of the chaotic tunnel. What I’ve been asking myself currently is - How did I come to this revelation? Can I document it in such a way that it can be recreated concsiously? The intuitive answers for me have come like water rushing over a bridge during heavy rains. I stepped away from a situation and mired back and forth with it. The little devil on my shoulder vying for control, asking me to keep it going, not realising the detriment to my psyche. It didn’t win in that specific situation I am thinking of. So, can we be more calculated in order for that little angel to win, continuously? I think so. But not in the way that you think. In the group I facilitate with the ILC, we consistently broach ideas regarding beliefs. We are continually journaling and leaning into any confirmation bias created by preprogrammed beliefs. This helped me light the path I needed to recognize a pattern, but that wasn’t the deciding factor in the angel of affirmatively divine direction winning out this time, helping me to garner the confidence needed to speak my truth. It helped to set the stage of course, but it was a different connection, and in order for me to speak my truth I needed another angel guiding me in a way that was authentic to me. Meaning they (the other angel) was aligned with the deeper nuances created in a real time friendship. A soul connection. The type of connection people often talk about, that is ethereal in a sense and can’t be explained. If I had not had this outside influence and authentic connection. I would not have had my truth mirrored back to me in a way that collaborated with my authenticity, and in synchronistic timing, I wouldn't have felt the confidence needed to speak my truth.
We all know how hard it is to trust ourselves in a way that brings us into alignment wiht our values and out of all the questions I've posted on these blogs, this one might be the most important. If we cannot trust ourselves our lives will be controlled in a way that signifies a deep personal death that is often hard to recover from.
The moment of truth in all of this is that is that in order for us to speak our truth we often need to find our tribe. Seek those connections that light up your soul. The ones no external narrative can create for you. Not the ones based on what you should be doing in life. The ones that have a seraphic feel to them. I’m speaking on the ones where you can banter with each other, with complete ease. Where talking seems like a beautiful cycle, where after the conversations, you walk away with deeply seeded contentment. These are the spaces with which we find ourselves able to live out the rest of our days keeping the promises needed to feel light and fulfilled. Keeping our promises to ourselves also means moving through life in a way that eases our experiences to encompass fulfillment.
It’s not just happiness we are searching for. Often times it’s peace, and it’s fully there inside you just waiting to come out, sometimes with the help of a little angel sitting on your shoulder, whispering your truths back to you.
